HOW WE SAY GREETINGS IN AIDS DAY???

Today, a baby born with HIV. The mother was died and the father is dying. The born is commemorating the AIDS day. What's an ironic, isn't it???

Maybe we are blind or pretend not to see, but we actually face that AIDS epidemic is happening in our world, not exclude Indonesia. The country who belief that religiousness is becoming guide of lifestyle is facing the worst iceberg they didn't even notice. What happen in Africa is happening here.

I won't be surprise if now, everyday a baby is born in HIV in Papua. Or wifes in Jakarta and other districts having baby with AIDS without knowing that infected by unfaitful husband, Or lot's of drug user that even we notice under the white collar.

What should we do for the world???

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So who are you??? bitchy girlfriend??? or sissy boyfriend??

I had a friend whose boyfriend we called "his driver", we called that coz everywhere we go, he took her, drop her, picked up her, drove her there, drove her here.

And there's our other friend who is boss in home and the husband is look like maid coz he 'yes man' and do what his wife said.

And other friend who look like a sister to her boyfriend, not older but act older.

And other friend who act like babysit her boyfriend. Go everywhere, wipe the sweat after basketball, serve the dish when in restaurant, get him drink, get him that, get him everything he want.

Is it love, dedication, or professionification????

We always refer a status together with other status and all suddenly got segmented.
Are you a mad girlfriend, or are you bossy friend or are you possessive boyfriend??

Can't we just say girlfriend, boyfriend, etc???

When we face a couple of parents, oftenly we asked, " who is a bad cop and who is the good cop??"
And some answers mom as bad cop and dad is a bad cop or reverse

or if we found couple gay, who is the male one and the female??

We knew that all that status is based on character and attitude we are, but what actually attitude that refer to "basic status" like wife, husband, boyfriend, girlfriend???

So who are you??? bitchy girlfriend??? or sissy boyfriend??




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Everyone is a judge

Ramadhan is a holy month for moslems. A 30 days of hold hunger, thirst, anger and lust. We in a mostly moslem citizen have to accept and tolerance that lots of entertainment places are close in honor this month. Club, karaoke, or restaurant are closed or start open at night.

In this month we, other religion should tolerance about the duty of fasting. Why they don't tolerance of us who is minority of not doing fast?

from what side we judge?

The one thing is always there is an organization who named itself as front defense islam go door to door to check if any entertainment places are open or there are any inappropriate behaviour during the fasting.

Not rare we saw at the TV, they make some discotheque in damage or, raid hotels and find couples doing sex while Ramadhan.

the disturbing behaviour of raid make the society judge that organization is brutal and anarchist.

Don't they (this organization) see why we judge that???

This an other story. My family have a rent house. When we got guest of a foreigner (caucasian), my parents are excited. but when find out people who rent is africans, they are worried.

In Jakarta, lots of African is suspected as drug dealer.
Are we wrong to judge them all that way??

What is the rule of judge or what is the game rule?
Is one action of one member affect the group it self?
Is freedom of opinion same as freedom of judge?
Is judge as bad as like this?

And everybody is good at judging don't they???

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Thank God we are not born in stripped

I Always ask stupid questions to my Mom. Like when a Caucasian having a child with an Africa, why the skin isn't becoming strips or dots or dapple like cats?

Or I wondering maybe the Sun that super hot in Land of Africa that makes African so black. And is the African people feels always hotter under the sun like we when having a black shirt under the sunny day???

And if we could transplant the good thing from plants and animal to produce prime product, what happen if we could collect out good thing and our spouse to make a baby... are the world would be much moreee great???

It's a stupid question and I don't know why I never question that when a little girl??? It's suppose like kid's shocking pop question.

Hahahahah maybe that's the effect of late drinking formula milk that contain DHA and super smart think from commercial for baby and kids.




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MARRIAGE PLANNER

Once I read a twit from a famous radio broadcaster, "I think somebody has to restructure women's mind. They have always wanted a dream wedding. When they should be wanting a dream marriage :)"

Last October maybe was a lucky or good month. A lots of weddings and births. Counted almost every week, I was attending the wedding.

There was a funny story from one of them is my next cubical friend. The last 8 months of her life is busy with her wedding preparation activity. The thing that's bothering me, that she couldn't answer my question about her life after the 'I do' Day.

People are plan for their perfect wedding, do they planning their marriage life?

Where is they going to live after? How long they should pay the credit from the wedding dash? How long they should save to buy a house? Should they live with the in law? When is the perfect time to have children? How much the husband money? Should the wife quit the job? Can the husband afford the family life? What should the new wife do in early marriage? bla bla bla other thing...

The 'I do' Day isn't the peak event of people life. as I say the day after.... except after your wedding is an armageddon. that's too bad.

The stigma of women thinking of perfect wedding, much and less affect the men is worrying about it.

Hear a desperate sharing from friend's friend of mine, about his worry of his girlfriend "We should get married" ultimatum. It's one the example. The man is worry because "I'm not stable yet", " I'm not afford yet for the wedding party", " I don't want to wedd with our parent's money" and else...

Beside the mentally 'I'm not ready for this step', there are culture sight about the worries
1. Singles in Indonesia mostly live with the parents
2. Recently the bride and groom to be are amateur jobber with less or approximately 60.000K/year.
3. The fact, most of Indonesian wedding is paid by parents.
4. Indonesian family is big. It means when you wedding, hell's come invites. Plus if you are businessmen or family does, wedding means promotion or gathering.
5. People here gives money rather than gift. Believe that it's more worth than gifts has change the function of wedding to commercial.
6. The prestige is high, the large wedding u got, the high appreciate you got. but trust me it's forgotten. People don't remember the wedding but them.

So I wonder myself why should people spend almost trillion for one day party with most of them don't known personally in their special day, that have been prepared stressly almost year?

And I don't surprise day by day the number of divorce is high-ing. People plan their wedding not their marriage life.

(This is too precious to trash, I moved it from my old blog)
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Everthing, there is a price

Why everything is counted with money? Your time, your sweat, your effort, your service, your thought, your supervision, your access, your permission??

How actually it happened, when people started changing something with money?

Long long time ago, people changed their stuff with other people's stuff, which with that ways they could fulfilled their necessities.

With born of currency, people got easily get something fair on standard. But I don't remember where the history of counting everything with money.

Perhaps when the industrialist era, after the world war I, where people start create efficiency and cost counting. And It effects us in the way of thinking.

Everything, there is a price.

But how much do you give for a price??? as a price? as low? as much?
If you priced as amount of money, How much do you worth for??




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Dream, Current Life, Future

I watched 'Revolutionary Road' borrowed from a friend this weekend. And I told you I got some perspective of some movies I watched from last writting.

"It's unrealistic for a man with a fine mind to go on working year after year at a job he can't stand. Coming home to a place he can't stand, to a wife who's equally unable to stand the same things. And you know what the worst part of it is? Our whole existence here is based on this great premise that we're special. They we're superior to the whole thing. But we're not. We're just like everyone else! We bought into the same, ridiculous delusion. That we have to resign from life and settle down the moment we have children. And we've been punishing each other for it."

CURRENT LIFE
Most people, they are giving up they dream, married and having children. And after long time, you just say to their kid, "I knew I couldn't get my dream come true, but having you is more beautiful than my dream"..... ahhhhhhhhh it's so sweet.

Are you in denial???

From a man called Rene Suhardono says "Embrace your passion, live with a life action." How to choose a dream on priority???

How could you choose eat of marvelous dining than eat just for living on the same penny?

Give up it's a first form of lil' denial. By saying "It's alright I letting it go ", We release our unability to unreachable and bury the denial. but it's still there.

And if you suddenly just have encourage to dig it up. It's denial again......but that's alright (Like I said before) maybe it's our release the unability to accept the denial to gain unreachable dream. And maybe you make it.

And you like it more. that's why called dream. FUTURE


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We need a new type of feeling

I found somethings on movies I watched this couple days. Like this things. Here is some quote:

"Does he make you smile??"
" At least he doesn't make me cry" - Ocean Eleven

Do people daily live in happy life?? Why is there only two option, happy and sad. It's just ironic that either you not choose one, it means you choose the contrary one.

This case it's like food. In European food, you only could taste sweet, salty, sour and bitter as your tongue taste that. But how you describe savory (rasa gurih) or like the taste of coconut milk in some Asian food, or Monosodium glutamate that invented by Japanese?? They called it the essence of taste. It's kind of 1 variety taste our tongue couldn't describe but taste it beside sweet, sour, salty and bitter.

Could we created some new feeling like that between the scale of happy to sad. Of course some of us calling it normal feeling, but what??? What is normal? is normal you half happy and half sad? or you are not happy and sad at all? or you feel happy and sad in the same time???

Sometimes in the morning I woke up and mirroring, saying "I'm happy". Not I can't do it.... it's like I'm a stepmother of snow white, keep assuredly told that I'm the most beautiful in the world.

so... let's us wake up and mirroring and ask our self, And how I feel today???


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BANCRUPCY

This is why the middle class always got the big punch from economical crisis. Because they earn like low class but their style like high class.





I bought a glasses today... revised, two glasses today. One is normal glasses which look cute but suddenly it looked different. And both of my parents just keep asking " why are you wearing glasses???" Two is the sun glasses which I believe it un-UV protection at all.... Why I bought those things while I got 500,000 for the rest of this month, which contains 2 long weekends and a planning to go to Jogjakarta for Batik hunting, some unpaid debts, 3 best friends birthday, 1 wedding and many unpredictable expenses.

I have plan to move from my job, coz it definitely could not afford my lifestyle. Well there are two ways, change my lifestyle or change my job.
Well I thought my side job could help but IT'S NOT. I have one 5 million unfinished yet projects and 2 million unaccepted design project. I could I depend on them????

While I always watching people carry their giant Birkin Hermes, I'm in 10000 rethink to buy 200,000 shoes which is the same shoes I have that have been getting worse in appearance.

And how I could afford food tasting dream on my next office mall that make you feels you are in top of food chain??? Well I think Monday it's a best start for carry lunchbox.

People face that their should work to get a life. life aren't only food but also clothes, dweller, vacation, lifestyle, car... and getting more. So how to keep the want from need and have??? I stuck with them.
I don't regret bought those glasses, but at some point I knew it unnecessary. but how I could resist the temptation?

I want a Tony Stark... I want get lottery, quiz, or something with prizes??? could I??

Hoh... Heres the song... "I Will Survive" yeah sings Gloria



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BE REBEL AND YOUNG

speaking with a young man.... Yes, he is a young man not a boy. Surprisingly knew on our conversation.

The attitude of acting but thinking, ambitious and free...., when was I the last time feel like that??? I feel ashamed and old. For any funny and fearless to live, I haven't any of them. I always have plans, designs and sketches of my life. My brain was thinking before it alert me to.

When will I take off my shirt and jump to the water? When will I loose my ponytail and let the wind fly and mess my hair? Or throw the umbrella and and running in the rain???

I HAVE NO GUTS
Yet I waste my time for many stupid games from facebook. I feel grounded, for feeding fish, harvesting or serving food... oh my....

Tell u youngster.... facebook make you stupid.
No children play outside and wide through imagination..... but this one
A young boy, full of dream. You still have a hope, my lovely country


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How I step my foot first?

My cousin is getting crazy about having business... for me.. it's tik tok time before I leave Indonesia that I wish for. I want something that really mean, that I'm passion doing and really countable for my financial... so I' could relieve and feel free to move to another level.

From making cakes, laundry service, shoes maker, bag maker, distro shop, batik shop, everything have been thought to be the idea of our business. And no one is starting or seriously in take.

Are we dreamy people?? are we not serious person? What should we do to step our foot first into a commitment. I think it needs a huge courage to lift our foot and step a ground ahead....

everyday I hear about career coach from Rene in my favourite radio station. The more I listen, the more I want to get out from my job. I keep having no click by living from that job. Sometimes its feel like I got into wrong major in school? Do I??

Well I buy recipe book yesterday. I hope it's kind of lil step forward. I always have faith I have some business of my own...


I have that faith...



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Read My Life

Psychic, spiritualist, fortune teller.... what are they.

They can read your hand, your mind, connecting to other world, predict and attack.... huuuu...
I'll introduce you to mr. D. One of them and he's in my office. For couples week, there are seem so many auras flew around the office and give so much energy. It feels like Harry Potter VS Voldermort. Some good, some too much energy, antusiasphere I think.

Should I ask to be read?? I'm curious sometimes about it. But I think I wont be surprise for the reading. I think I could feel what my future like. For better for worse reading.... all I can do is continue my life. Knew before happened.... it's not a surprise life anymore.

Some people tell me to open my aura.... what for? If attraction will come for me because of help, does it mean I'm not attractive???
I tell you and my self..... I"M ATTRACTIVE.

ps: this is my left hand.....


See you tomorrow nite

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Starts Cleaning everybody!!!!!

Chinese New Years is coming soon. Around next month the year will changing to tiger. So I'm preparing to clean some of my mess. Because cleaning couldn't be done just for one day. So I decided to started every week until the New Year before it's too late.

Cleaning before New Year have meanings. There is a phrase that tell that the cleaning before the New Year means sweeping away the bad luck of the preceding year and makes their homes ready for good luck. So get ready every one.

And there are some thoughts that when you want to start a new life or organize you life, first clean the trash you kept. It's literally and even in you mind. So I think it's a good start in this New Year... I'm cleaning my mess, because the year of tiger would be more challenging and more conflicts.... Be ready.

I'm starting for organize my shoes. I just got dilemma about putting my shoes in boxes or not just in shelf. Then lately I decide to line them up in shelf. Here my shoes... I put on my new shoes too there.... well it seems not quite many. Wish after new year I could buy another one I told you before.



See you tomorrow nite!!
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Farewell Bianca

Adiu mon ami....

Today is farewell of my lovely my friend. She's going to Australia. What a brave decision and huge family support. I wish I could make it too. Hope this journey would be the better experience for you. Wish you good luck and grab all diamonds there. Have fun and play safe, baby.... LOL

Still about friend today. I got a bad news and good news. The bad is I should say farewell for my friend's twin babies. They died after 2 hour birth in 6 months premature. I wish you will be tough and sincere to let them go. They are angels up there.

And good news is my other friend is pregnant. Congratulation Nining & Hendra. Wish your baby gives peace and happiness in your family.

I met someone today. She poke and recognized me but I didn't. OMG who is she??? I feel guilty about it. I must find who she is.....

Wow I met lotta friends today. I met my Jr School boy, He's hot now..... (I seriously need practises)

See you tomorrow nite...

PS: I bought new shoes today. I think the next trend is marmer pink. It looks fabolous and cheap. just IDR 250.000... and hope next month I could but the ankle boot... it's hot...


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Who saw the solar eclipse anyway???

There was solar eclipse today. Anyone see that??? I didn't see everyone in my office told that could see it. It's too bright.
Well some maybe curious about it, making fuss of sight capability, cockyly teaching how about to see it, or waiting that moment as one thing you couldn't see again at the rest of their life. I chose...none.

well... that's nature happenings... God Almighty.

Friday is the best day of the weekend. So the brain is starting to pause for daily rush and dream about Saturday and Sunday.
Well... it's started with Movie time. Here I went watch "Did You Hear About the Morgans?" with my lil best friend, Fiona.
It's funny and I love SJP and Hugh Grant.... uurgh I love the british accent.

The funny thing are we saw a big lady (beg a pardon for physical description but she is huge. I thank's God for my size because I think she is almost doubled me. But she wear a nice dress) a she wear Louboutin. I repeated Louboutin, 12 cm sharp heel pump. For Christ sake I feel sorry for that Louboutin. And That lady with a man who carry the biggest Hermes that I ever seen. I repeated. HERMES. Birkin Bag 40. It's could 40-50,000$. WTF????

Anyone in Jakarta who have it. raise your hand!!!! ckckckckc amazing


See you tomorrow nite
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