EERGGGHHHHH DAMN COUNTRY

I really upset about this country. When people counting the effect of reformation, we realized that the concept of transformation is absurb. The reformation didn't worked by several people. The law of small force against majority isn't valid here in Indonesia, unless thhe power of dictactor. That's why in lately polls, it showed that people loves the era of Soeharto. The force of regulation, make people feel saver inside the circle of rules. That's why the reformer didn't agree about the polls. Because they walk to break the circle.

So when we shout about reformation, are people really want to have that reformation. If they feel save and satisfied, they don't feel the reformation is necesarry.

for example 'calo'. Is the present of 'calo' will disappear in procedural goverment's administration?? The people who given the label 'calo' may be will stop but actually calo can't work alone. There were a system and support that keep the activity sustainably. And the system and internal support isn't labeled as 'calo' but as bad behavior of human being.

I frustated with this country and I hope people out there not give up for this country, coz i do.

I don't think 5 generations will do change. I think we need another ruler that strict and brave enough to face the voter.

2014 will he/she show?? The ruler

Birthday

For me, birthday is scary things... I don't know it's about counting up or counting down.

Today is my mom's birthday. And she asked me why I give the 3 little candles. And all day she's talking " I add another year "

Actually I hate the concept of numbering candles top of cake. It's stupid and scary.
And I can't bear that birthday means you get older and near death.

And mostly I got emotionally when my dad n m mom got birthday....
If I could cry for the thing on my mind that scary the hell out of me...

Mom, Dad, I love you


Today monologue from Ms. Deejay

IT'S HARD TO THANKFUL

Recently I was glad to be settled and enough for my self financially and starting to clean up mess. With quite raise and lotta side jobs, I thankful because I need to catch my deadline to go Europe this year.

Europe is my goal this year.

But I don't know about my feeling, that in this time too I have lot responsibility that should be done myself. I called it The Adult monthly expenses.

I was thankful, when my car was crap, It was on a pay day. I thank that I had money. But in my heart I was happy that money should be a plus for an addition.

I was glad I got an apartment. But unfortunately I have to pay the monthly services.
Maybe sometimes I'm an unthankful person, But I'm a human. It's natural when the time u grace, you have to let it go.

Learn to thankful it's hard. I learn to thankful of average. Let my little heart was broken, but I never tired to keep up.

Today monologue from Ms. Deejay